So, our baby shower is this coming Saturday (want to come?). I am very excited and really tired at the same time, because I have been doing so many lil' KYUTE things to celebrate this occassion. But believe it or not, with all the things I STILL have to do, the one thing on my mind this morning is 'friendship -vz- relgion'.
WHY? Well, while I have ALL my faith in God and love him with all my LIFE...I am (as are all of us) still a sinner. I know this sounds weird but I sent out a few 'Valentine' wishes to some good friends of mine. Well, one of them answered me back with HER beliefs and was honest with me. She said she is 'cristian' and does not celebrate Valentine's Day after learning where it came from. (I'm ok with that part....) But, then I started wondering: Would she still come to my
babyshower. After all, Angel & I are not married and are having this baby together while 'knowing' that God doesn't approove of 'sex before marriage' and exct.
So, does that make my personal love and devotion to God worth anyless than others? Does this make my 'celebration' any less important? Angel & I currently live with his mom:who is a full and devoted cristian and has been for more than 20 years. She was also married to a pastor for over 15 years (until he recently passed away last year). I love that even with all her turmoil and suffering her love for the Lord still grows strong. She practices her love for Him on an everyday basis and yet acknowledges that just like everyone else, she too is a sinner. But one thing I don't see is her passing judgement on to others, she leaves it all to God. She has us living in her house even under this circumcstances and gives us the full support that we need (as a mother and a friend). I've noticed that even with all the 'big-sinners' in her life, she does not critize or tries to make the decions for her friends and family.
I just hope my "friend" can ignore other people's decisions to make their own and just be a friend like God wants us to be . I know this is too much 'thinking' from just using Valentine's Day as a reminder of 'appreciation in friendship'....but in reality there are other circumstances in past between my FRIENDS and I that have me 'wondering'. At the end, I am clebrating this baby shower because to me this baby is a miracle.