Just a Reminder

So, our baby shower is this coming Saturday (want to come?). I am very excited and really tired at the same time, because I have been doing so many lil' KYUTE things to celebrate this occassion. But believe it or not, with all the things I STILL have to do, the one thing on my mind this morning is 'friendship -vz- relgion'.
WHY? Well, while I have ALL my faith in God and love him with all my LIFE...I am (as are all of us) still a sinner. I know this sounds weird but I sent out a few 'Valentine' wishes to some good friends of mine. Well, one of them answered me back with HER beliefs and was honest with me. She said she is 'cristian' and does not celebrate Valentine's Day after learning where it came from. (I'm ok with that part....) But, then I started wondering: Would she still come to my
babyshower. After all, Angel & I are not married and are having this baby together while 'knowing' that God doesn't approove of 'sex before marriage' and exct.
So, does that make my personal love and devotion to God worth anyless than others? Does this make my 'celebration' any less important? Angel & I currently live with his mom:who is a full and devoted cristian and has been for more than 20 years. She was also married to a pastor for over 15 years (until he recently passed away last year). I love that even with all her turmoil and suffering her love for the Lord still grows strong. She practices her love for Him on an everyday basis and yet acknowledges that just like everyone else, she too is a sinner. But one thing I don't see is her passing judgement on to others, she leaves it all to God. She has us living in her house even under this circumcstances and gives us the full support that we need (as a mother and a friend). I've noticed that even with all the 'big-sinners' in her life, she does not critize or tries to make the decions for her friends and family.
I just hope my "friend" can ignore other people's decisions to make their own and just be a friend like God wants us to be . I know this is too much 'thinking' from just using Valentine's Day as a reminder of 'appreciation in friendship'....but in reality there are other circumstances in past between my FRIENDS and I that have me 'wondering'. At the end, I am clebrating this baby shower because to me this baby is a miracle.

Where are we at today?

Well, I'd like to start off by sharing: I AM BLESSED! Lord, you have hugged me when I am scared, you have comforted me when I am alone, you have guided me when I am lost and you have sheltered me when I am in need.

Yesturday (going back to the last time I wrote in here): I was living in a KRAZY enviroment with some KRAZY people, my days were passing me by slowly and I felt I was at a road's end. As you may recall, I was single and tired of all the 'hook ups' or friends and family trying to convince me to find a man. I was working with some fun people and my priorities were my son, my brothers, my friends..then me.

Today (as in NOW): I am living in a WHOLE different enviroment where I feel comfortable with people who are able to excersice their relationship with God. I am in a WHOLE new situation but yet I see so many new roads have opened up for me. There has been so many changes that I feel my days are going by TOO fast. I asked God that if it was in his plans to send me a life partner, for him to send me that guy who HE knew I would fall IN LOVE with. He did... Angel. Angel & I are in the start of a new relationship and EVERYDAY is an adventure. But even more exciting is that: I am expecting a new baby!!! It's a girl....due March 27th, 2008. (SCARY) My son Branden is super excited because he has two brothers with his dad and is finaly getting a sister. The 'uncles' can't wait to meet her aswell. Frankie (my 17yr old bro) is on his way to graduate this year (one year early) and has planned out his future. I have not been able to see my friends but will soon at mybabyshower(Feb 23rd....which is two days before my 30th bay...AAHHH!).

Tomorrow (looking into the future):Only God knows what with time life will bring. But this I know... ALONE WE WILL NEVER BE.